Wednesday, December 17, 2008

IN SEARCH OF SOUL

I was impatient in whole of my journey, all my thoughts were on you my soul. I was trying to see you every where in my past, present and future. I was so eager to reach at the decided place, even wanted to fly. In true sense I was flying high.

I reached the place and tried to sleep but could not, my soul was in my thoughts. I woke up early in the morning and was so excited to meet my soul who was on the way, towards me. I started dreaming about her, visualizing her everywhere. As the time approaching, my heart started beating faster faster and faster.

I was completely restless and started crossing all ways to meet her, first time in my life, my soul whom I admired, loved and worshiped the most. Before this I met her in dreams only. She was so lovable, so sweet and looked like my Goddess. Just then received a call, she was already reached. My voice started fumbling in the excitement and was feeling to cry in happiness. I saw her from quite a distance in haziness. Then rushed straight towards her, saw in her eyes, she was smiling. I thought of embracing her but controlled myself as she started moving away in the presence of others. I was feeling little hesitant to say my inner thoughts, my happiness but hurriedly we started to our place.


After reaching I opened my arms to her and she come closer and closer to me with a smile and shyness. I kissed her forehead and saw in her eyes. I was happy to saw her in front of me, with her true, virtual and divine love. We shared most memorable time and created a third heaven for both of us. Her lips were whispering love and eyes were expressing fragrance of adore. Time slithered in acceleration. We wished to hold it for some more time but it slipped away in pace where we could not restrict it up for few more moments.

We had last journey together holding each others hands. We tried to share available time with best possible ways. As the destination was nearing we started losing our words, the smile from our faces was gone away. We halted at her place and suddenly she moved away from me, could not manage to see her eyes while separating from her. I cried on my helplessness wanted to see her for some more time. Then remained surrounded with her thoughts till reached at my house. I never come across so intimate emotions and never cried for someone, but now every time started feeling to cry. Now, my emotions towards her are changed into tears. Never saw her after our first meeting but desperately wanted to see her, to see her eyes in which she is keeping all her love. I got my smile, I got my voice, I got my sense and I got my vision in search of my life.

Saturday, November 29, 2008

Wishing To Live Forever Though I Am Dead

I was dead way back. The people who shared maximum of my life involved in the social system, they could not see anything except society. I was their blood but was a ‘materialist thing’ for them and for them only. I too did whatever they said and asked for. From being a different school of thought, I have always been given all my attention towards the people who used me for their superfluous prestige. Sometime I look for the senses which never get developed in me. It was quite late when first time I wished to live my life in my own way but I died before my actual life could have been started. I tried to give happiness to others by being dead for myself.


Disdained from family, then moved towards friends, as friendship is the most virtual and blissful relation in this world but only when you are true to someone or someone is true to you. Since childhood, inspite of my introvert and shy nature I have been surrounded by number of friends. Lost many of my personal belongings to give happiness to them, even did many things which I never thought of doing, for them only. Stealing money from my father’s purse and handed to my friend who wanted to give gift to his friend and intruded in that girl’s house because that friend was afraid of doing it, told lie at many occasions, bunking classes, and smoking were few domains I got involved but for time being only and to be very honest, all these given me joy of satisfaction because all I done for my friends. In this never got time for me. Friends to whom I surrendered myself always looked for more and more sacrifices from me and one day one-by-one they started vacating the sphere of my friendship, as they found I am not of their use anymore. I was ruined to sticking on my friendship by giving happiness to them. Though, feel always happy for those who are still with me in all my odds.


The world seemed full of hypocrisies where all relationships appeared were based on diplomacy and found that all relationships are maintained for survival of an individual only. They never care about emotions, sentiments or feelings of other person. They want sacrifices, sacrifices for themselves. How could I have been stayed alive then? So I died. I tried to give happiness to them by being dead for myself.



Disdained at all fronts, woven an uncracked web around me. Started living in my own way but in isolation. Started not to trust on any sort of relationship, then suddenly a goddess with full of adorability, lovability, emotionality and sensibility came in front of me. Tried to be away from her but could not. The said or unsaid words of her were so magnetized. The spark of belief, trust and the happiness which I have lost way back, are ignited once again. The world looks different now, wishing to live forever. The senses which gone dead earlier are awaken up now.

Friday, November 28, 2008

The Great Pleasure in Life is Doing what People Say you Cannot Do

Few people don’t afraid from failures but make all failures their stepping stones to fulfill their dreams. For them failure does not mean a defeat but it just put slight delay on their reaching to desired destinations. I also feel in same way, failures are the openings to know about my weaknesses as well as these make me more determinant. I always feel pleasure in doing which people say I can not do. Sometimes, I got stuck with illusiveness about my life, unable to sense its purpose, meaning, direction and destination. As I have been seeing every individual some point of time asks the same question from him/her innersole. But it is the change which forces him/her to move ahead for getting an edge on the life.

I have spent half of my life, silently observing world around me. and found that n Nobody wants failures in their lives. Failure means differently to every individual, some make these failures as stepping stone to reach at newer heights. Some minimize their desires to avoid failures. Getting failure, inspite of all efforts and hard work create nuisance in many lives. Thousands of deaths are being witnessed around the world on collapse of economic structure (sensex around the globe). Perspectives to take failures are different to different people. What does it mean and where does a failure stands? I have faced losses at all fronts. I accumulate all my losses and jumped on the desired result with more vigor and zeal. It may be question of satisfying my egoistic appetite, in which I have framed my own rules and regulation for me. I have created a ‘chakravyuha’ around me, where no one could entre without my consent. I have my own parameters to judge any individual and situation with whom I deal. I am a rigid nature, which has given me very few people close to me, on them I can trust. But I love to fight with my failures in my own way, about these I don’t like to talk with even my close friends. I am happy for being a winner (in my own terms) on my failures. I know there is dawn in every hell. The time will not be the same as it is today.


One inspirational story inspires me all segments of my life, which we in our old story books. The story is of the King Bruce who lost his kingdom and status of a king. He tried once or twice to get it back. But for him situations get worst, he hid in a cave for survival from his enemy. He was hopeless for regaining his position and was thinking to get suicide. In the cave, he saw a spider trying to build a web for himself. The spider tried many times but all his efforts went in vain. But despite of all failures spider did not lose courage. He went on trying, every time he fell but rose up again and again. Finally he succeeded and the web was built. King Bruce, saw this and got inspired from the courage of spider. He thought that if a small spider could succeed after having failed so many times, why could not he? The banished and tired king rose up and got his keys (Confidence and determination) to succeed. And finally he regained his status of king.

Another interesting instance is also there, when, I was working with INFLIBNET Centre, Ahmedabad. The Centre is quite closer to well known IIMA (Indian Institute of Management, Ahmedabad), the institutions of excellence, in which millions of pupils come to fulfill their sky-high dreams. Everyday, I used to spent some time at tea stalls which are located opposite to IIMA, to had tea and omelette. I started admiring this institute after this very incident. It is a story of E Sarathbabu who came from devastating poverty and reigned this academic destination of millions. E Sarathbabu who helped his mother by sold idlis in a slum of Chennai (India) where he lived. He studied mostly in the daylight because there was no electricity in the night. But with his hardwork and efforts he achieved highest rank at the IIMA. He was in the news for refusing high profile jobs with millions of dollar offers from MNCs. Coming from a poor family and reaching at topmost position as an entrepreneur says story of his success. Rejecting all offers he started his own chain of restaurants. Failures comes in his ways and he came under debt. Instpite of repenting he moved ahead with more confidence and established one of successful business empires. In his own words “I never regret on my decision of not accepting the offers from MNCs. I looked at my losses as a learning experience. I was confident that I would be successful one day”.


You must be thinking why I am narrating my state of mind and the stories to get inspired. Yes, my selfish nature is behind this. I wish to see a person, who is utmost closer to me, a very successful person as well as prominent professional. She is trying hard for many things. Inspite of having all qualities to achieve everything, today is not full of her confidence. She is very intellectual & intelligent and would be one amongst the high profile professionals around us. I hope while going through this post, few of you also get inspired from the failures instead of getting into gloomy world. Failures always give all ingredients to learn new things and spark to achieve desired destination in brightest way.

Sunday, November 23, 2008

I CARE YOU, BECAUSE I LOVE YOU

My heart, you don’t have to worry about anything, I am always here with you. Hearing your gloomy voice always pierced my heart. My dearest friend, forgive me if I rebuked on you or any of my word hurts you via any mean. I just want to say that I wish to protect you from all harms. I care you because I love you. You are my existence, you are my life. I feel happy when you smile. Sometime I feel that your smile is the only aim of my life. When you stay away from me, the world started crumbling in front of my eyes. Then I started losing all my senses which are required to live in this society. It is not a lust but emotions of ours are crossed all boundaries of togetherness. We are alike, we are the same, and we are for each other only.

I care, because I love 'you'
I lost my world and heart, when you are in grief
Seems we forget our laugh, Hey, no, not at all
My faith and belief is only you
My breath and existence belongs to you
I care, because I love you
My world starts with your smile
I am luring on your moles, one down the neck is beauty at sole
Wish to see in your eyes from so close
Soothing touch of our lips, say our ode
Hey, love you are my soul
My existence is for you
I care, because I love you



We are shedding tears, without uttering a single word, even cruel distance is not giving us to see our tears but reason of these tears known to us. My heart, our love is immortal, it will forever remain in our souls. God will have to bless us with our desires. He can not be so cruel to us, he has to give us the way.

Saturday, November 22, 2008

LOVE, YOU ARE MY WORLD


My love, I am on seventh heaven after getting your wholesome and true love. I admire you a lot in all appearances, the way you walk, the way you talk, the way you see and the way you love. You are my ultimate destination. I would like to reiterate once again about the truthfulness of my love for you. I don’t want anything from God except your presence in all fronts of my life. I already wasted half of my life without you, now don’t want to be away from you.Our talks take both of us in different world, we start our talk with lots of emotions for each other, sometime to go with emotions of sorrowfulness, sometime happiness and sometime naughty experiences spell whole of the conversation.. Since very beginning we started taking each others’ words of expressions, which you named telepathy of our love. I started believing on it and most of the time experienced it. Even sitting at different corners of this world, we are connected to each other with godly way of communication. I can see you without putting any pressure on my mind and eyes. I think of you in my all walks of live, since morning to next morning, feel your presence while talking to others even in my important official and personal meetings. No relation seems to be so powerful and divine. Love you are my world, my everything. Please be mine…….forever.

Tuesday, November 18, 2008

Beauty of Love


Life seems to be beautiful when we find someone to share our thoughts, emotions and nudges. Change is the only truth of this universe. The circumstances, situations and conditions get changed frequently. We started our yesterday without knowing anything and embryonic change taken us to present, where we are working and visualizing our future. Life is full of struggle and challenges, in which survival is the motive to everyone, by any means. Human beings are fighting just like animals, without differentiating any relations. They are killing their own people for their survival. Why people hate each other when 'love' still exists? Don't they know that 'love' is the name of God? Yes, they do not know, because they never loved someone, they never loved by someone so they can not see anyone in love. Every soul has two bodies (opposite sex) which bound to meet occasionally to get recognised by each other. Only blessed bodies acknowledged each other in this world which leads to happiest life together and the bodies unable to recognised always remain in illusion to each other.
"Love is the beauty of life", where one holds own breath to give peaceful sleep to the lover, banish all comfort of life for the sake of beloved one and call all ills of each others by sacrificing own happiness. They have their own charisma of togetherness, the laugh, the cry, and jiggle of emotions. Pretty luckiest and happiest they are who blessed with desired mate by the Cupid.
Hey, I am lucky and happy, I found my soul. The one who is just like me she is my own replica. We together are cherishing the ‘beauty of love’. With bricks of love, we have created our SWEET HOME.
Love is beautiful. One cannot know where the love comes from, why, but it comes into your life and you make a corner for it. You are happy to accomodate it because it becomes the only reason of all joys in your life.It is the mysterious force that binds people to those around them.Love is always evolving and changing and intensify. I have had a fascination with love all my life. I used to fantasized and dreamed to have someone (soulmate) in my life who love me like anything and can able to find purity and truth in that relationship. Being in love is the one of the most exciting experience a person can have.

When two souls find that they shares many common interests, values, and ideas, that feeling you get from meeting someone like that is an example of how beautiful and magical love can be. When you find a soul who is just like you and fit into your life and you cannot imagine how you were ever without him. I am also happy to find him who is helping me to understand the true meaning of love in this society, where these feelings are rarely welcomed.

Hi!!! Welcome to our paradise.
(Created on 'Our Day')

Wednesday, October 22, 2008

MY LOVE - 'Because you loved me'

‘Love’ is the best emotional value of this world. It is spiritual, divine, wholesome and enduring in deep corner of individual heart. I am utterly indebted to the people who come across in my life and showered their divine emotions on me. Many of them are gone away from me for a reason and other but their adorability still freshening me up with a flash of their thoughts, love and care. Directly or indirectly they hold me up, they helped me to be little stronger, they helped me to read true relations and showed me the face of reality. Today, experiencing disdained values of fake emotions, we may get relaxed for some moment but the pain they offer is unbearable. Finding a true love is a spiritual gain to any soul. I am lucky enough for getting an adorable, lovable and endearing person near to me. I am cherishing the love she is pouring on me and want to live in this state of passion forever.

The song/lyric written by Diane Warren is so close to me heart which in true sense expressing the emotional feelings for my ‘love’.

Because you loved me

For all those times you stood by me
For all the truth that you made me see
For all the joy you brought to my life
For all the wrong that you made right
For every dream you made come true
For all the love I've found in you
I'll be forever thankful baby
You're the one who held me up
Never let me fall
You're the one who saw me through it all
You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me
You gave me wings and made me fly
You touched my hand I could touch the sky
I lost my faith, you gave it back to me
You said no star was out of reach
You stood by me and I stood tall
I had your love I had it all
I'm grateful for each day you gave me
Maybe I don't know that much
But I know this much is true
I was blessed because I was loved by you
You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed
I'm everything thing I am
Because you loved me
You were always there for me
The tender wind that carried me
A light in the dark shining your love into my life
You've been my inspiration
Through the lies you were the truth
My world is a better place because of you
You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me.
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me
 
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