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My Diary
05.03.2009 (Thursday)

Since we ended our night talk improper way, I woke up by her call early in the morning today. My day starts with her voice, love and lots of care. She called before getting ready for the office and also called after reaching in the office. I left my bed on her direction and reached in the office exact on time.

In office, after clearing few official issues, we talked. Today also we shared a few calls of 20 plus minutes apart from few very short talks. I was feeling little passive without any reason. Many of the time I felt her consciousness might be due to the longer talk and the people around her must have calculating her time on the cell. Even her principal also commented her about the time she holds the cell.

I don’t know what to do, hearing her voice is my weakness and everywhere some or other thing is happening which forcing us to minimize our interaction. Really I am quite upset with these developments, now can not hear her in the office as well as in her house. What to do? Should I start behaving tough with myself for controlling my desires to hear her? No no... I knew I am heartless, if once start thinking out of my heart may convert me into a stone once again. Naah, I can not imagine my life without her.

We had our evening talk too, but again it was not completely on our love but shifted on others. My brain has forced me to think over the issues which should not be there in our discussion but now started coming up. I am feeling her pain, by putting myself on her place. All these pains are given by me, a useless stone which she is carving with her love. I am thinking seriously over her pain.

Received her a very short call with full of love while coming to my house. Prepared my dinner and start working over Internet. She called up and came online after 10.40pm. Today Internet was giving some problem, once again we could not chat properly even could not talk to each other over the phone as we used to. I am desperate to see her, want to touch her. This chat and talk is not giving satisfaction anymore at this moment. My love is so lovable but being her love could not even see her. What a badluck I have and what a fate given by God where I can not even see my love.

Sensing something.....

My Diary

04.03.2009 (Wednesday)

Her call woke me up in the morning. All my days in which I got up by hearing her voice go incredibly well. Her voice brings me exceptional strength and activeness for the day. I was on bed when she again called me from her office. I got ready for the office as instructed by her and then while doing my breakfast try to talk to her to show that I am in actual having my breakfast. She was busy so ended that call quickly.

After reaching, I sent her mails and then talked to her. I was feeling so fresh as my day started with her voice.

We shared few quite a good (long) talks, even sometime she felt conscious because of the people she was surrounded might have observing her over the phone. Then we waited for our evening talk. I dint do anything during the gaps we had given between two talks. Whole day has gone with her lots of love. She was very busy with loads of work in the office but given maximum of her time for me.

During evening again she poured all her love while talking. But evening talk was interrupted once or twice due to some reasons at my as well as her end and finally the call ended without any proper way.

She called me up at 7pm and then at around 8pm. The day was going in astonishing way of loving each other. She came online at 10.30pm. But I felt we have not talked on any of the issue in this chatting, even found her speechless at few of the occasion. Suddenly, I thought not to hold her for long when she was not getting words to chat. Before ending our chat, I loved her pics. She is my life but don’t know where and why she got lost somewhere. I was angry.

We talked for around 6 minutes as I was feeling she was not comfortable on the net while chatting with me. I was in very bad mood. She loved me but disconnected the phone by getting irritated on my behaviour. I think first time she ended her talk in this manner. I lost my sleep the way this lovely day has ended. Surly this is not a good sign for us. When ego clashes everything fall apart. I place my apology on my cracked behaviour. I normally got caught by this type of tempter but she never. She is so sweet and lovable, even much better than GOD. Love u my love.

On the way to sleepless nights

My Diary

03.03.2009 (Tuesday)

Today is 3rd our memorable day, for this occasion wishing my love and praying to my almighty God for bless us with everyday of our lives like our memorable day.

Yesterday, we had a light but long talk. I was astonished with the pure love she is showering. Today, again did not get my sleep properly did not know when I got sleep in the morning. I woke up with her call, my eyes were little heavy but I felt that whole of my day would surly be going incredible because I heard voice of my love. She again called up me after reaching her office she got disconnected on the terms that she would be calling me back soon. I was not in the mood to go anywhere was just lying on the bed and was deeply involved in her thoughts. Just then again got her call, she asked me to take my breakfast and get ready for the office. Do not know why blindly I follow her words even can hide anything from her, but never got this much courage to go against her words. I reached my office after almost half an hour.

I was very happy to receive her few calls since morning, it was great after many days, I heard this much of calls from her even those were in 3 hours. We shared long long talks today. It was really a wonderful day for me, as found her so much close to me. Now again, I have started realizing strength of our love and her devotion for our love.

For office, just discussed few things with my staff about our projects, it was just a routine work only. But tried to spend most of my time in her thoughts, I like to see her everywhere around me.

Evening talk was again the same as we used to have. She poured her all love as always. Her way of talking always fascinates me. She is incredible sweet and lovable. We broken the talk as she said would be calling after 2 hours or so. She got busy in her household jobs and I also left the office to reach early at my room to get involved in her dreams and thoughts, this has been my every day routine. After reaching at the room, I started waiting her. Each and every second was started giving load of tons weight but she dint come. I was restless for not receiving even a message from her side and get into tears soon. Later she came and revealed about her limitation and situation of this delay.

She came online but again got slightly late. Don't know from where the thought came 'she wants to keep me away, so started making these delay". I felt guilty on thinking this way and throw away this unwanted thought, as I can see her divine eyes with full of spark for our love. Just then she came. We again shared a beautiful talk, I loved her pics and her too but suddenly she left on thought of present situation at her end. She has gone to sleep with the words that she will wake me up whenever she come out from her sleep. Again thoughts our 3rd memorable day came into my mind and now started waiting her as she said she may come as well as start writing these lines about my day.