I feel I have something to say…

A thought surprised me when it comes all of sudden in my mind, why I am writing on the Internet. Whether I am tapping the Internet for the sake of my name or do I really need to write. In search of base of this question, few other questions intrude in mind why I am contributing on two different weblogs, personal as well as professional one, does this really make a different sense?

Exploring answers for these questions, I sat quietly for longer hours and one by one tried to decode these.

Why I am writing? is the question which jittered me more. I started evaluating my psychology and recollected some of the snippets of my life - when poor relatives of mine lost their only earning hand. I wished to help them and the process of pacifying them forced me to write a long letter to them. I remember the untimely and unexpected death of maternal Grand Father, with whom I always wanted to talk more and more, on hearing about his death my disturbing sense forced me to write to him as we used to talk. My parents still keeping this document as a code of my relationship with him which nobody knowing when he was alive. In an another incident, my mother instead of much needed love, rebuked on me when I lost a little amount of money. I could not express my feelings to her but my conscious forced me to write suchlike my heart and mind experienced on that day. As now, I am in middle of my age, many things happen all around which give me concern of thinking and expressing myself. I am trying to give these happenings an insightful reflection in the form of letters. I am writing because I feel I have something to say……

Why I am contributing on two different weblogs? This is natural sense or non-sense in me to keep personal and professional matters separate. My professional webspace is profession centric and fully devoted to the profession. In this I am getting little articulative and manipulative while putting my thoughts across but basic professional fundaas remained the same. Although, I am not a good write or orator even then wish to be with my professional fellows in form of interactions. My profession is not simply a profession for me but it is my passion. I know, being a librarian or information manager, I have an important role to play in the society and have lots of promises to keep. Where I have to be behaved professionally even killing my very personal emotions. Therefore, sometime in my professional sense, I feel I have something to say……. to my profession.

In my personal weblog, I am exploring my innerself. Its vicinity remains within me only. This webspace (blog) is revealing myself to me as a social as well as emotional being. In this I write whatever I am wishing rather than getting imitative. This weblog gives me optimum satisfaction where I am not trying to consol anybody else except my soul. I write this weblog because I feel I have something to say…… to me and to my soul.